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primary school was amazing, was popular got on with everyone. had good family life. i was smart always had high grades, except for irish i can't explain how i can be good at most other subjects now in secondary its the same i do spanish now aswell and its horrible i've never been like it i feel like a stupid idiot all the time. school is difficult, iam very sick so miss alot of school therefor i miss out on hanging with my friends and lost them all it really sucked! also the seperation of my parents broke me in lots of peices. its been so hard to put myself back together. my dad left and i resented everything like iam a daddys girl how am i ment to live without him? and apperently i cant live with him its so hard for me. my mother, my brother and i never got along like my brother spread stupid rumours about me to make himself more popular and i'd tell my mam iam sick and she'd like laugh it off, like i was messing, like why did she not believe me? it got so hard for me and moving on now, thankfully iam getting better. but out of all the hurt that i've gone through the only person i thought i could trust my my friend but even though i have all my friends back i've lost her which makes me feel like shit but she doesnt care. i guess it will be fine i'll move on i have everyone else now.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Mothers.

I love her but seriously iam not 5.. You use to hold me when i tried to walk, you never let me fall now iam older you still dont let me fall. They say you learn from your mistakes. How can i learn from my mistakes if you dont let me make them? Not letting me do things will only drive me to do them without you knowing, it gives me a kick. I know you've been through alot but i miss my old family and you dont understand that, you say you've lost a husband.. I've lost my daddy, iam daddys little girl. Its just not the same. Mam i need space why cant you just see that?

Friday, January 8, 2010

RealFriendWillGetOverIt.

She's Your Friend, and you don't want to hurt her. But you can't help the feeling you get everytime you hear his name or the beat your heart misses when you see him. So when you get a chance, you take it cause it might never come back around. If she is a real friend she will eventually discover that; if you love this boy and he feels the same way about you, she should not get in your way. Love is a hard thing to find. So when or if you do take it ‘cause it can feel like nothing else matters, like heaven.♥ -Laura Reynolds,x

Love?

She thought he loved her. She thought he cared, She thought he was diffrent, that he'd be there for her. But really he was some prick who said the same as everyone else, just to get what all the other boys wanted, his bit. Now all she wants to know is there any boy that actually cares.♥

slut?

You might think she's a Slut, but really she doesnt give a Shit what you think about her. Really she lives for the moment doesnt regret anything that made her Smile. Just because she acts confident around boys doesnt mean she is, she is probably hiding behind that act because really she is just looking for the one boy that will make her feel Special.♥

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

snow?

i do love the snow it looks gorgeous but seriously it can be a real pain in the ass, like how am i ment to see my friends? i live in the middle of no where! even the schools are closed, which is one of the only times i see them. its also so dangerous and causes so many accidents. its beautiful and fun for little kinds but it gets soo annoying, do many other people feel the same?