Him(L)

6months of my life, then you leave.

i honestly didnt know if i loved you but the second you left me, i broke down. its just over a month now and i cant even think about you without shedding a tear. you were my best friend my life, when you left me you promised we would still be mates but no. do you know what you said to me.. 'why would i want to be with you, when i could be with the lads getting high'. sound! iam now just numb, baby i miss you so much. though your being a douche i get back with you in a heart beat. i can only be myself around you, i am now almost a zombie.

i love you and always will (L)

Cheerleading.

In October last year i tried out for the first ever irish cheerleadind squad, which i didnt think i would actually get on since i was so stupid to go to the tryouts hungover. i didnt want to endanger myself by doing stunts but i was lucky enough to impredd them with my dancing. After making the squad i'd attend practice every sunday for three hours and sometimes longer untill worlds, which took place in florida disneyland on the 20th of april 2010. Training was difficult pain sweat and tears litterally! because i am just under 5 foot i was a flyer. this included big strong boys thrown me high in the air while i twist flip straddle and many more hard stunts. During one practice i broke a girls nose just because my leg was not tight enough coming down. Many people quit because they could not take the pressure or afford it but i stuck to it because this was a once in a lifetime oppatunity. i had never been any where in america and had only been out of ireland once without either of my parents for three days. Florida was 8 days of freedom which i needed form all the craziness of the past year. but no stupid freak volcano decides to erupt the day before our flight was due to go and causes all flights to be CANCELLED. no refunds no other flights available later. But to my surprise late that night got a message saying were going. Then i wake up i get dressed and am ready to go. then of course i get a text say that stupid volcano that no one knows the name of erupts again soo NO america for us.
Our coach tried to make it up to us by bringing us to trobolgin in cork for the weekend but it was nothing compared to what florida would have been. We gave cheerleading in ireland publicity and now we get told we all have to tryout again next year with no promises we'll get on with thousands of other hopefuls compared to about 200 last year. FML

NewFamily.

Well its been about three months since I wrote on my blog. the last time i wrote i was telling you about how hard it is for me watching my parents separate but i guess i am getting use to it! i spend most of my time with my dad now which is really fun. i get to see my friends nearly everyday but at the moment iam grounded for lying about being drunk, so have to live without them for a week. iam getting very close my dads girlfriend Heather! she's great. i think she's nearly crazier then me :O ( and thats very had).
My mom got me a puppy, his names Ozzie and he's a cross between a collie and a lag. Since getting my little babyi have realised how hard it is mind another living thing. i feel for my mam and now know how she can be so protective.
My dad and heather own a dog a two cats. the cats were not happy when ozzie arrived but Jack loved his new friend. My cats in my moms Lexie and Romeo do not like there new brother and have gone missing just to get away from him. im hoping things will be better between them all.

Mothers.

I love her but seriously iam not 5.. You use to hold me when i tried to walk, you never let me fall now iam older you still dont let me fall. They say you learn from your mistakes. How can i learn from my mistakes if you dont let me make them? Not letting me do things will only drive me to do them without you knowing, it gives me a kick. I know you've been through alot but i miss my old family and you dont understand that, you say you've lost a husband.. I've lost my daddy, iam daddys little girl. Its just not the same. Mam i need space why cant you just see that?

RealFriendWillGetOverIt.

She's Your Friend, and you don't want to hurt her. But you can't help the feeling you get everytime you hear his name or the beat your heart misses when you see him. So when you get a chance, you take it cause it might never come back around. If she is a real friend she will eventually discover that; if you love this boy and he feels the same way about you, she should not get in your way. Love is a hard thing to find. So when or if you do take it ‘cause it can feel like nothing else matters, like heaven.♥ -Laura Reynolds,x

Love?

She thought he loved her. She thought he cared, She thought he was diffrent, that he'd be there for her. But really he was some prick who said the same as everyone else, just to get what all the other boys wanted, his bit. Now all she wants to know is there any boy that actually cares.♥

slut?

You might think she's a Slut, but really she doesnt give a Shit what you think about her. Really she lives for the moment doesnt regret anything that made her Smile. Just because she acts confident around boys doesnt mean she is, she is probably hiding behind that act because really she is just looking for the one boy that will make her feel Special.♥